My anxiety is at an all time high today. Had a horrible nightmare about being crushed under the heavy weight of expectations while being intensely perceived by an unfriendly crowd, then dying with a lot of regrets. Am I wasting my time?? I can’t tell if this is an omen or my brain being silly. 3 hours later my chest still hurts and my head is hot. Maybe I need to take a step back and re-evaluate what I’m doing it for.
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Last time I wound up with chest pains, being kept awake for hours on end at night was already bad enough. An existential nightmare provoking it on top of that is the last thing I’d need…
I’ve always felt like I’ve been refusing to acknowledge the implications and repercussions of living the way I do. Even now, it’s difficult to internalize in a way that would motivate me to improve upon that. I hope whatever you decide to move forward with is something you’ll be proud of yourself for, and something you’d never dare second-guess or apologize for doing (anxiety notwithstanding).
Much love!
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