I was warning my therapy group that I’m intentionally inflicting psychic damage to myself this week. My therapist told me I am very self aware and emotionally intelligent. I’ve been told that before. To be honest, it doesn’t really be able to be able to step back and see – oh I’m feeling this way because of this-; it almost makes it worse. I know why its happening but I can’t do much about it. It’s like watching a car crash about to happen from the sidelines not being able to stop it. Maybe I’m just too neurodivergent to live in society but I hate having feelings like 90% of the time.
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